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One More Trip Around the Sun

Today I’m only a day older than I was yesterday, but yesterday I was 33 and today I am 34.
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I like birthdays. I’m not the kind of girl who doesn’t like the (birthday) attention, and I’m certainly not the kind of girl who doesn’t want to celebrate a birthday because she thinks she’s too old for that. Wtf is that about, anyway? The last time I was really excited about my birthday was on my 30th because, well, it was my 30th birthday and I started the day by jumping out of an airplane at 10,000 ft. and landing safely at the bottom. It was fantastic.
The other time I remember being really excited about my birthday was the day I turned 18. I was very excited about becoming an “official” adult and I felt invincible. The possibilities were limitless and I was going to be successful at everything I wanted to do. The day after my 18th birthday I was overcome with serious melancholy because I realized I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. 18 to 23 were difficult and uncertain years for me. You couldn’t pay me to be 23 again.
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So far, being thirtysomething has been nothing short of fabulous. I don’t feel anymore of the fear, uncertainty and self-doubt that plagued me during my early twenties. I know who I am, I know what I want, I know what I like to do, and I’m doing it. I don’t worry much anymore about what people might think of me if I behave a certain way or make certain choices. I can get myself through tough times with minimal drama and certainly without freaking out about it. That’s what I remember most about the late teens/early twenties: lots of drama and freaking out (omg!). At some point you grow up and you realize that not everything sucks and not everything bad that happens to you means the end of the world. Like I said, you couldn’t pay me to go back to that.
At 34, I am the most comfortable and confident I have ever been with who I am. I’m not saying I can sit back and relax now because there’s nothing left to learn or no more growing up left to do. There’s a lot more of that coming…I’m certain of it and I look forward to it. But today, right now, I am happy and satisfied with who I am. I can’t think of a better birthday gift than that. Cheers!

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14 Responses

  1. Christine Lalaine says:

    Happee Birfdai!

  2. Marina says:

    So here’s the requisite bad birthday joke: You were 33 yesterday, you’re 34 today, are you going to be 35 tomorrow?
    Every year my step-dad poses this question to us. You know it’s coming and can’t avoid it.
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

  3. Joie says:

    Happy Birthday! hehe..you’re a few months older than me.

  4. Jason says:

    Happy Birthday!

  5. tricia says:

    Happy Birthday!
    I’m turning 29 next month and am actually looking forward to my thirties … less drama, more fun!; I couldn’t agree more.
    Here’s to you!

  6. Julie says:

    happy birthday, babe.

  7. Annalynn says:

    Josie – Happy Birthday.

  8. Tilde says:

    Hey big sister! Hope you had a wonderful birthday. Dad just wants you to know we miss you and thinking about you on your special day 🙂 I hope all is well!
    Love,
    Tilde, Taeya, and Dad

  9. fabmimi says:

    yay! it’s josie moyer day!
    happy birthday!
    i’m so lucky to have you in my life.

  10. inna & brent says:

    HBTY! enjoy- it’s your day to shine…

  11. Casie says:

    Happy Birthday!!

  12. Gail says:

    What a wonderful post! Lots of aloha and happy birthday wishes from all of us.
    G & E

  13. cee says:

    very well said.. i can totally relate.
    happy birthday josie!

  14. Michelle says:

    That is a wonderful revelation. I’m slowly but surely easing into relative peace with myself and my surroundings — no more road rage, fewer petty annoyances, more patience with people, nonchalance toward little things … is this what happens with time?
    It’s lovely. Oh, how lovely.

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